sunshine in san francisco

sometimes, every now and then... the beautiful sunshine comes out in san francisco... and makes me feel guilty for all the days i complain and bash on this amazing city with natural wonders, beauty everywhere and many wonderful things...

i love you san francisco, we just have irreconcilable differences about climate.  for those that love the constant, consistent, predictable and stable... the cool, calm and medium middle, then this is the place for you! and what a place it is...

however... those words just don't match my personality... i can be a tourist here, a visitor, a passer through, a forever lover of this place... but resident? i just... dont... think it's gonna work.

so what now?

out of darkness into light

after much notification to friends, family and contacts that i have a blog, i realized i only have three entries... so here's a 4th.

today is saturday, and my 4th day of unemployment. it's a great place to be and i'm all a  buzz with making arrangements for what comes next.  on the list includes improved blog; adventure; travel; sunshine.

stay tuned for more.

gringa goes glocal

the adventurous ideas and endeavors got side tracked and i somehow got sucked into san francisco. how does one survive in the urban jungle?  it definitely doesn't feel like gotham city like my last stomping ground... yet not nearly as artisticly inspiring. but who has time for art anyway? i work the 9-5 or... 8-6 or 7-9... depending...

how many days has it been since i did something totally selfish? or totally bold... completely out of line and not approved by society.  things have started to feel rather suffocating lately. i've lost my mojo or my groove... somewhere along the way something got lost.

things feel rather ordinary, uninspiring and mundane. i dont feel that i'm truly absorbing all that life has to offer...

my wanderlusting is rusting!

i've got aches and pains and emotional drains i'm bored and snored
cant seem to move forward, stuck in a rut my gut is saying uck

we're dying here.

a death that wont ever come but just oozes on towards nothing filled with much of everything and not enough of something...

but what could it be
what has to give
where is the breaking point
when will the juices flow again
how will my wings grow?

what phoenix needs to die and embers need to be born?

what gives and takes
what makes and breaks somehow forgotten and yet
always remembers the cycles that spin and take away my grin

just a dull pain without gain and just energy wasted

... in vain.

would be nice to slice myself away from this loaf of plain white and mundane
set foot on new wholegrainy terrain
regain all that was lost or that still needs to be found

i'm outbound or maybe inbound to the sound of my own heart and the beat of my steps that know the way to being lost

and found

on my own and fullfilled or emptied but just something different than this numbness and

plain
drain
insane!

how do i fly away?
and run! while i still stay...

i guess i could go
but it doesn't seem right
to always result to flight i suppose i should try stick it out
dont puss out!

stick through these times

find the purpose of this

CIRCUS

carve out MY NICHE from this ditch

get myself going
flowing... soaring...

AWAY from boring

towards colors and flutters
and jumping and dancing and living and dreaming and being!!... and vanessa-ing...

wanderlusting rusting...

To Do in Perú

What exactly will I be doing in Peru? Good question.  Even better answer

• Living outside my comfort zone
• Chosing life outside the box
• Improving my Spanish abilities
• Sleep well (naps!)
• Eat well
• Worry less
• Dance more! (learn la Salsa)
• Be spontaneous
• Never be on time
• Take a cooking class (in Spanish!)
• READ (never have time in the states, somehow there is more time in Peru - I think its a major US export or something)
• Own and ride a bike
• Learn to knit (learned to knit in Peru in January, but want to learn more stitches)
• Get a yellow fever vaccine
• Visit the Jungle
• Machu Picchu & Inca Trail
• Visit Chiclayo, Mancora, Cajamarca
• Write an article for an English newspaper or website
• Join local Expat Associations
• Go to the dentist (hey its cheaper and will be a cultural experience!)
• Swim in the Pacific Ocean South of the Equator
• Eat as much Ceviche as humanly possible
• Learn how to make a Pisco Sour
• Travel to Chile, Argentina, Colombia
• Avoid Winter (and Cold weather in general)
• Learn the bus system of Lima
• Drive a car
• Teach English (i.e. job, make money)
• Visit international schools and learn about teaching opportunities
• Volunteer in Villa El Salvador
• Learn about Peruvian history
• Learn about the Shining Path (Sendero Luminoso)
• Learn about the Japanese, Chinese and Afro-Caribbean immigrants of Peru
• more to come...

Good coming... err... Bienvenido!

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